Its my life and I'm living it...

2006-07-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

people will nv know who i really am.YOU will nv know who I really AM.but do ppl really even bother to know who i really am?its difficult to know who you really are.let alone YOU to know ME.but i guess you dun really bother, huh my friend.the mood is set, the solution is decided.let go and dun care.i think i would really want much to be like that.

2006-02-11T15:25:00.000+08:00

is it me? or does anyone feel like very emotional and all after watching any movie?well i mean i always get so emotional after shows, esp movies that i start thinking abt life and get moody all. esp for love stories, bleagh. well just wanted to voice this out thats all.

2006-01-24T22:05:00.000+08:00

I stare into spaceMy foot is always in painMy mind in a conjure of thoughtsAnd tears flowing down my faceok i dunno wads that abt but its just rubbish that i just thought and wrote down. i dunno why but it just came out. i think i used the wrong sentence structure there. but wad the hack. its just plain rubbish. even i cant comprehend what im writing abt. haha.. well take care ppl.

2006-01-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Noelwent to watch derailed today at cine. catch the 4.40 show.hated it.dun ask why.i wont say.just HATE it.wasted 7 bucks.

2006-01-10T15:34:00.000+08:00

Captured within four wallsNot by barsNot by keysBut its just me.The urge of freedom instiling in meNot by pressureNot by stressBut just wanting to be me.A search in look for youNot for desperationNot for imageBut to know if you exist for meMaturing to understand the worldNot for knowledgeNot for proudnessBut for a clear mindset of my future to beThis is me, I am who I amNot being adnormalNot

2006-01-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

Joanne De-torn the roses for meJoanne put the roses in the vaseJoanne bring it over to grandmas place Joanne come and stir this for meJoanne hold out the platesJoanne put 16cups of water into this potJoanne pour this into the potJoanne poke the bubbles of the jellyJoanne wash upJoanne this Joanne that!! what the hell. i stay at home all day and i become a slave!! i should have been born a boy.

2006-01-06T18:01:00.000+08:00

Tip Tap love is always candy!Tasty like fruit.Good luck. Thats right, everyday is Sunday.Lets go out to the city after the rain.Making out curiousity swell up like a bubblegum bubble.The puddle reflects a blue blue sky.Without a doubt, Tears will dry up too!! ((:In the pastel sunlight.Having both lucky and unlucky days.Lets walk forward slowly.Tip Tap candy just like we dream of.If we stuff our

2006-01-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

hey everyone.. well i actually came back on the 1st. new years day. yea just came back from a movie with my bro. went to watch family stones. was slightly late. but overall its a good show. if ur're a drama lover. this show is for you. yup.well recently ive been really moody. i havent smiled the whole day today. or at least i dun feel like i did. dunno wads wrong with me. mood swings maybe. hmmm.

2005-12-31T00:57:00.000+08:00

yea!!! went bowling today again.. hahaand ivana come over!! bloob! hahawe had fun painting nails. and playing with my cat. haha she left around 10.30. sent her back home! lolz.. love you vana! hahaanyway i will be going to malaysia tml ppl so in advance wishing you all :

2005-12-29T15:18:00.000+08:00

WoooooHoooooim going nuts already... hahahaBowling ytdPOOL today!!!! wheeeee im starting to enjoy pool.. haha.. i beat john!!! not because i cleared table lah that was only once? haha.. the rest of the time he kept on hitting the black ball or cleared the black ball then the cue ball went in... hahahhaha.. i wanna play somemore.. tsk.. im addicted.. hahahaha...got my xmas present from john today

2005-12-27T22:04:00.000+08:00

God will make a way When there seems To be no way He works in waysWe cannot See He will make a way For ME

2005-12-25T18:28:00.000+08:00

hey everybody!!! hope everyone is having a great xmas this year yea?? lolz.. the lord was born on this day!! peace to him!! haha... okok me holy and all here.. haha... i went out with my cousin just recently..came back not long ago.. goodness went to buy facecare haircare all those products and all. i learn so much today abt products im having a headache.. haha... really i dun bother.. and

2005-12-24T20:37:00.000+08:00

its like xmas eve and im stuck at home?? hahaha... im online but then like no one is online.. everyone soooo busy with xmas.. lolz... and today goodness wheneva an aunt came over they all came bearing gifts.. haha.. just joking.. but they were all carrying cakes... home bake cakes!!!! yum!!! and its not the small flavours.. its many flavours.. goodness i have nv seen so many diff flavours of home

2005-12-22T13:37:00.000+08:00

I have done the best i could have doneAnd now i stand with no regretsWhatever it is, its ur loss!Step by step im moving forwardLittle by little taking groundNow I'm moving on.

2005-12-19T21:24:00.000+08:00

Though you might not be the oneBut now is all that matters to meAnd now im wishing you were here with meYou stand too far its impossible to reach youRuning in your direction but never reaching the destinationMy energy is draining, my stamina decreasingNow your're in a place where i cannot reachNo amount of running, words or tears will matterAnd my energy is now all gone, all hope in me is lost

2005-12-18T21:18:00.000+08:00

hey ppl.. well went out today after mass went to town for bernice bday.. only me anne joycelyn and the bday girl!! ate at seoul garden again.. like quite boring already.. and so ex lah.. bleagh.. thought i could get a free meal.. but then guy found out abt me.. so i had to pay.. bleagh.. anyway we just walked around.. noel met us for a while during his working break and the narnia 'fair' is damn

2005-12-16T21:42:00.000+08:00

hey ppl just got back from KL done a lot a lot a lot of shopping.. not going to list the things i bought cause i just cannot be bothered... anyway dun think you all will be interested... well wadeva.. just a short one.. bye"my energy is all gone. i give up, this is just stupidity."

2005-12-13T13:43:00.000+08:00

hey hey everyone i heard that my entries are difficult to read.. well dunno it seems completely fine on my com.. will try to solve it soon... anyway im going off tml for holiday.. i will be back on fri.. take care everyone.. Thanks a lot john for hearing me out and listening to all my crap.. its really all up to me now.. there

2005-12-07T23:02:00.000+08:00

hey hey 2 entires in one day... not bad for me... hahahaha... anyway shopping with my mother was great actually... manage to buy a blouse in 10 mins!!!! and on mon was walking around the whole of town for one whole day!!!! goodness... lolz.. had carolling at around 8 there.. came back not long from it... went to hillview regency... nv offer food.. bleagh... haha.. oh well wadeva then.. and benjy

2005-12-07T12:13:00.000+08:00

ok going out at 2 with my mummy... going shopping! happy abt the shopping part but not happy abt the people im with part... lolz.. my mother taste in shopping and all completely diff from me... goodness there is going to be so much arguing when we go out... going to find another white top for my comfirmation..i nv realised when i bought the top it was cream white... then my skirt is pure white..

2005-12-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

well well its been such a long long long long time... here my blog is finally up again.. its just so boring after the Os... and it sux more to know that you still cant go out as and when you like... hha.. but oh well nvmjust came back from church.. had dinner for father tung 50th anniversary as a priest and his 80th bday.. wow rite? haha.. yea.. did not eat much.. not feeling well.. then im going

2005-09-29T12:24:00.000+08:00

BOOO!!!! IT SUX TO BE SICK!?!?! >_

2005-09-25T18:28:00.000+08:00

ITS THE LAST CATHECISM CLASS TODAY!!?!?!!?!?haha well yea awoke today and realised it was the last lesson of cat clas today.. the last of alllessons!!! hahaha... ok i have rather mixed feelings.. like part of me happy but part sad also?? ahahaha.. i guess im worried that the cat class ppl will not stick together anymore?? but then oh well i cant control that.. so wadeva! lolz... have my

2005-09-22T21:17:00.000+08:00

hello everyone.. im blogging cause my bestie and mei keep asking me to update.. hahahaha.. wad can i say im soo lazy and just cannot be bothered liao... hahahahhaanyway today had stoopid post exam activities... only 11 ppl came... well expected of our class.. lolz... firstly went to the hall for a talk on SAJC... two speakers came... one guy from the science department and one lady from the arts,

2005-07-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BDAY JASPER!!! MY DARLING!!!!hope you enjoyed urself ytd with ivana and me.. lolz....HAPPY SWEET 16!!!! :)

2005-07-06T18:12:00.000+08:00

MR EUGENIA LEE TAN IS A BITCH!!!!!!i dun care if other teachers see this shit.. i cant take it anymore... just bcoz of one stupid social studies hw that i did not do cause i did not get in the first place... im have gone through like 3 days of hell!!!!!! first you call my mother and tell her.. fine tell her.. inform the PARENT... i think you should check ur eng again.. you said parent!!! not

2005-06-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

IM AN ASSnow i know.. im a pile of shit of no worth.. everything that is happening to me now i have laid it upon myself.. me and my immatureself... ive hurt two ppl in a row in a day.. in turn i hurt even more in my heart.. my eyes are hurting and i cant get to sleep.. but then wrost thing is i cant concentrate on my work at all... sigh... its all my fault im in this situation now... i just wanna

2005-06-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!!!!!!GUESS WAD????IVE FINALLY PIERCED MY EARS!!!!WOOHOOO!!!I WONT BE DEPRIVED OF EAR RINGS ANYMORE!!!HAHAHA!!!

2005-06-11T21:36:00.000+08:00

when will i truely smile once again...with my heart full of happiness...and smiling to the world...proofing i have overcomed my difficulties...when will it happen...will it even ever happen...what is it like to smile..with a heart full of happiness...no sorrow or sadness...do they even exist anymore...in such mordern time...with a stressful country...with suicide cases rising...mostly teenagers..

2005-06-10T14:36:00.000+08:00

NO BODY LOVES ME EVERYBODY HATES ME...LALALALAI HATE MYSELF...YOU HATE ME...EVERYONE DOES...LALALALALA...HAHAHAHAHAHA

2005-06-09T22:48:00.000+08:00

Im going crazy..i dunno wads wrong with me...part of me wants to crypart of me wants to screambut most of me just wants to vanish...i wanna find a place...a place to hide myself foreva..hide from reailty...from the sufferings and pain..i feel like a fairy tale character..only living in the real world...i know it sounds lame and stupid...but i just wonder..how long more can i last b4 i REALLY kill

2005-05-30T23:56:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...im going to perth tml, 31st of may... i will only be back on the 6th of june in the morning... so yea.. actually dunno why im writing this.. not say much ppl are going to read it.. and not say anyone is going to miss me.. only just one maybe... yea.. anyway byez.. to whoeva will read this.. maybe only one...

2005-05-13T15:57:00.000+08:00

hahahah... im in joycelyn house now.. lolz.. been so long since i came to her house.. lolz.. my bestie!!! lolz... you all will not guess what the hell she is doing to my my hair now k.. she is cruling my hair lah!!! lolz... i wonder how i will look like after it all.. surely look like crap... haha... but then quite fun yea.. haha.. my hair so thick.. joycelyn keep asking me to go thin.. but then

2005-05-10T21:08:00.000+08:00

sigh... im trying to be strong.. i laugh and look normal.. but deep down inside is that really wad im feeling?? im so confused deep down.. my feel like im throwing my feelings all around the place unable to control them anymore.. sigh... im angry with myself.. for liking you when there are other better ppl out there.. im just so angry!!! sigh... my life is just so confusing.. im trying to

2005-05-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

its over.. its officially over... sigh.. 8months and 16 days... it has all come to an end.. i have broke up with you... it sux... coz i did not break up with you cause i did not like you anymore.. i broke up with you cause ur attitude towards our relationship suxed big time.. sigh... i lost count on the amt of chances i gave you.. i just cannot take it anymore... sigh... its all over now... we're

2005-04-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

lawrence yeo who is a "priest" is a totally completely entired 100% ASSHOLE BASTARD BITCH IRRITATING ASSHOLE IDIOTIC CREATURE MONSTER PEST!!!!!!!who is the hell!!! did you become a priest... you must have threatened the priest to make you become a priest rite... if not a priest will not be so blind... you are such a RUDE ASS you know that.. i talk to you nicely wad else do you want???? go on my

2005-04-23T21:08:00.000+08:00

hey everybody!!!well well my chinese prelims are on monday and im like not studying.. lolz... and my friends came over to my house today!! we had lots of fun man!! lolz... they came to do the poster for our church feast day funfair!! try to come k ppl.. we are doing DUNKING machine!! you can come and dunk me and my friends.. lolz.. its on the 1st of may on a sunday its labour day!! so the next

2005-04-15T21:26:00.000+08:00

WE GOT GOLD FOR SYF DANCE!?!?!?!?! *SCREAMS!!!!* SO HAPPY!!!!! ALL OUR HARDWORK HAS FINALLY PAID OFF... THE SCREAMING THE YELLING AND PAIN AND EVERYTHING ELSE.... LOLZ... GOOD JOB EVERYONE!??!?! WE'VE DONE IT!?!?!?!

2005-04-02T17:34:00.000+08:00

hey hey everyone..i really have nothin to write abt lor... life been so boring lately.. even my personal diary also got nothin to write abt.. lolz... hmmmmoh im sure all of you know already rite.. the prelims marks now can be used... most of my friends so angry.. for me.. does not affect at all... lolz.. cause i got no intentions of going to JC... my chinese CANNOT MAKE IT AH!!!! lolz... so i

2005-03-15T20:57:00.000+08:00

Are you taking this seriously?? it seems you're not... i wanna know.. but i dun wanna ask... i dunno how long this will go on.. i just wanna know if your're taking this seriously...if i dun call you will you call me? if i dun msg you will you msg me back? if i dun even contact you will you even bother to call me or msg me??if i hang up.. will you bother you call back?you say you're grounded but

2005-03-03T19:05:00.000+08:00

YOYOYO!!!!hey peeps... did ya all miss me??? lolz... kk i know i have not updated for quite some time now... WONG KAI YI UPDATE YOUR ALSO CAN!!! lolz.. =P yea.. anyway well my life beens ok i guess.... O levels results we're out not long ago... heard my cousin did very well.. then as usual all the stupid nagging came up... you better live up to the standard blah blah blah... like do i give a

2005-02-15T13:42:00.000+08:00

wah wah wah... sooooo long since i posted an entry already.... haha... sry.. been some time since i came to the com.. sec four life really really busy.. lolz... anyway how was CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE??? LOLZ.... well hope that many of your collected lots and lots of ANG PAO!!! lolz.. yea... i collected quite a lot... i will not post my amt.. later ppl start thinking... dunno lah.. haha..

2005-01-21T21:35:00.000+08:00

well well... today was qutie interesting.. lolz... woke up damn freaking late man.. haha but then first let me tell you abt ytd first during dance yea... so well i went for dance practice ytd.. then zaki did not come cause he was sick.. yea.. thats was wad we were told.. but then we could not go home.. so we had our own practice session.. b4 that rushed down to dance studio cause have this

2005-01-11T20:45:00.000+08:00

hey hey everybody... man so this is how sec 4 life feels man... haha.. its tough!! im quite stressed.. yea... ok maybe a lot.. ah dunno lah!! haha... anyway blogging now cause im doing my art.. looking for pics.. yea.. hope my teacher will allow me art theme.. dunno if its ok anot =S hope can lah.. hopefully.. then next is i hope i can draw the pics related to the theme.. haha.. so mah fan.. i

2005-01-04T16:12:00.000+08:00

hey hey... the previous entry just highlight it to read k.. i dunno why its like that... smt wrong... hopefully this entry will not be like the previous one.. lolz... anyway was LATE for the first day of sch!! stoopidd jam.. so long!! reached sch at abt 7.30 there... haha... oh well its first day... so no prefects on duty.. haha... my form teacher is mrs mag low.. she is ok lah.. its just the

2005-01-02T15:43:00.000+08:00

well well its almost back to sch time.. honestly speaking im glad to be going back to sch... i can finally leave this jail cell!!! woooohooooo... oh yea!! lolz.... oh well anyway im going to sarah P house soon for drama faces meeting!! wahhh sooo long since we had a meeting... haha... okok i better get going... later i late.. just hope i can find sarah house.. haha... alright byez peeps.. happy

2005-01-01T17:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!?!?!?!??! well its the new year everyone!!! lolz... my illness is kinda getting better i guess.. lolz.. man.. got party tonight.. not really looking forward to it though... want to rest but then got party.. then my baby cousin all going to be there... noisy like anything ah!! :S lolz.. but then oh well got to tolerate it i guess... sch is starting soon!! lolz.. kinda happy to go